GIVING UP

For me giving up is a spiritual practice. I tend to be dogged about everything, banging my head against a wall for hours when I can’t get to the bottom of things. (I’m a Capricorn) But between politics, tech, and selling books, I’ve come to the end of my tether.

Politics was first. I’ve been ranting for years now about all the things that are wrong with this country. This latest debacle with the Supreme Court signaled that our government took a wrong turn a long time ago and that getting upset about it is only bad for me. Because there is NOTHING I can do about it other than sign petitions and put my voice out into the wilderness. I have spent hours looking up astrological predictions, trying to understand what it all means in terms of day-to-day reality. Getting caught up in the crazy chaos is not a way out. It’s a way to get stuck.

Technology came next. Glitches with the internet, constant trouble getting onto sites I belong to that require endless hoop jumping. Slow internet. Having to call to find out why something isn’t working — hours on the phone waiting. And my marketing has become a nightmare of false starts and endless frustration. In lieu of having a nervous breakdown, I now walk away. It just plain isn’t worth it. Which leads me into selling books.

Why my sales are down is not something I understand. Perhaps people aren’t reading? Or if they are they don’t want…