So depressed…

Nikki Broadwell
3 min readOct 6, 2021

I am at the point now of hating my country. Another fucking oil spill, (dolphins swimming through it, wetlands destroyed) and learned this morning that there is NO legislation coming up on police reform — not even a ban on chokeholds. We elected a democratic president and won both houses and still are unable to get past the Republican senate. And they want no reform — everything must stay the same — no police reform, no gun legislation, no voting rights act— let the government go into default with another shutdown — the list goes on. The rich were given a tax break on their capital gains so that they might be inspired to put some money into projects for the poor — one of them is now building a Ritz Carlton in downtown Portland and putting up condos. And there are no restrictions to stop this — who would have thought that a rich person might flake on this idea? I mean, really. This is the country we live in.

And as far as I can see there will be little to no changes coming. If Biden can get even a part of his infrastructure bill through (his own party can’t even decide) I will be pleasantly surprised. Why can’t dems play at least a little bit of hardball? And the filibuster? Why are we balking on getting rid of it? I see the future and it does not look pretty — dems lose seats in 2022 (gerrymandering and voter suppression, not to mention our short term memory loss) and we get Trump back in 2024…we are a bunch of short sighted idiots and with the voting restrictions being put in place and no help from the Supreme court we will surely have minority rule.

Mexico would be a better place to live than the U.S. At least they have health care. Watching this country go down is one of the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. It is heartbreaking and beyond belief how far we’ve sunk. Trump began an era of ‘just do and say whatever you want and pay no attention to laws’. And he got away with it. Subpoenas came and were ignored. The Mueller report was held up as a sham by Trump’s AG. Now we have people in our congress who are still saying Biden didn’t win the election. This way of dealing is trending. Just show your true colors and be as debased and disgusting as you want and no one will say or do anything about it. You can hold office despite being an abuser and a crook. Who cares? As long as you spew hateful crap that people want to believe, you’re gold. And as far as voting these people out? Good luck.

I wish I was one of those people who could stay inside my shell and live my life without worry about the future, but I’m not. Maybe because I lived through the Nixon debacle and witnessed our protests to stop a war. Now everything is on social media and the young are numbing themselves out — I have grandchildren that I care about. What kind of a country will they inherit? If anyone can show me a way out of this morass, please leave a comment. I hate to hate my country and depression is not fun anytime.

Nikki Broadwell

In my real life I’m a fantasy/mystery author. What I’ve written so far on Medium have been political opinion pieces. But that is changing!